rustyyyyy

Today was the perfect case of the bitch butterflies, it was absolutely terrible, no excuses. Well actually i have one legit excuse, most of the girls looked under age but there was the occasional cute girl. The only girl that seemed the most attractive to me was the girl with a sleeve tattoo, did i approach, nope. Its hard not to regret it but it's best to move forward. I guess today was the first step of getting back into the game.
Tommorow is a new day, here's my game plan for tommorow (i should be using this plan everyday). Break through and machine gun through girls to get into the social mood. Hopefully reach god mode within the first hour of the night so i can enjoy the rest of my night. "don't dip your toe in the pool, just jump in to enjoy the rest of the swim". Im big on quotes and that's my favorite when im about to start gaming.
im heading to downtown then either a club or strip club, im excited and down for whatever, i just don't want to waste my weekend. That was a random last sentence, oh well lol.

inspiration through the roof

I've never been so inspired in my life, well I've probably have but this is the first time sober where I've been this inspired.so it's been multiple events in my life that have reawakening my inner awesomeness.first I needed a boost to get my player skills back up so I watched some simple pick up to regain that knowledge and mojo.then while I was in class today I learned an acronym that is mainly used in battle for my job but can be used in ANY situation,I blanked out on the acronym but I'll make a separate post on it some other day. Also today I had an instructor that was probably top 5 of the funniest guys I ever met, but at the same guy he was an absolute douche bag to us.anyways the instructor told us a quote that blew me away even with it's simplicity, `amateurs practice to get it right, professionals practice to perfect`. I love quotes and this is one that will stick with me for a while.

    On a fun, exciting, no more inspirational bs  note, going out this weekend.well hopefully if we don't get put on lockdown for other peoples dumb mistakes. I wanna make the most fun I can get without getting in trouble. I know my history involves allot of going out, get fucked up and expect great results but the tables have turned. It's now, stay sober and be a fucking awesome and expect great results. Worked before and it'll work again...

jawdropping...

Ive been getting pretty great news one after anothee. First i find out i get to go back to san diego for 2 weeks during christmas, then i find out a couple girls i know wanna have a 3 sum when i come back, then in February  when i go back to sd again im gonna make  a trip up to ucsb and like a rockstar lol. But the best news of all is that im gonna stationed in england come mid Feb.  Im beyond extactic.  It was first choice on my wishlist, so im beyond overwhelmed. Cant wait to find me a british girl!

a soldier first...

I've realized today, I won't be comfortable all the time like I use to be. I want all the comforts of home and want some more easy routes but I realized its just not that way anymore. Im a soldier first above every thing else. Im getting paid to step out of my comfort zone and face the elements of the unknown. I need to constantly keep my self in check, and tell myself that im a soldier first. A way I've been actually become a better soldier is eatting healthier. The pt here is alot tougher and it isn't doing me any good by eatting unhealthy crap. I gotta keep my eye on that beret.Integrity first, service before self and excellence in all we do.